I might as well admit it up front: I decided that sitting around worrying about what might happen was, quite frankly, driving me nuts. So I did what any sensible person would do, I got back on my tri bike and began training for triathlons again.
The first time I went back out on the street I was so scared. To top it off, there were rain showers in the area, so I kept getting rained on. I don't really mind getting wet, but I was so afraid... of slipping on the wet roads, or of a car not seeing me and running me down,etc. But I faced my fears and finished that 17 mile ride.
In addition, I signed up for another triathlon, the Topeka Tinman (I am already signed up for the WIN for KC triathlon and the Jackson County Triathlon which are both later this summer) and started attending a master's swim class! Of the three sports in a triathlon (swim, bike, run), the swim is most certainly the weakest for me.
While I can get myself across the pool, let me assure you, it is not a pretty sight (and I'm not referring to the varicose veins on my legs!). I was so nervous the night before attending the masters swim class for the first time that I woke up every 23 minutes all. night. long. When I did sleep, I dreamt that I was walking with my children through a cave which was getting narrower and narrower... The children were ahead of me so I had to follow them in spite of the fact that I was pretty sure that I couldn't fit around the next corner. Yikes!
On the bright side, I guess I am officially old enough that I'm past having the "it's the last day of the semester, I can't remember the combination to my locker, I'm pretty sure that I never attended one of my classes, and the final is today" dream. Do you ever have that dream?
Not only am I "outside my comfort zone" in pursuing all of this, I'm feeling like I'm not even on the same planet as my comfort zone!
I find myself thinking things like: What on earth was I thinking, signing up for this earlier triathlon? While I don't think I'll drown, there is a significant possibility that I'll come in dead last for the swim portion of the race. On the bright side, I can only improve from this point on, right? Plus it's another good way to ensure humility on my part!
So there you have it and now you know what I'll be doing with Tom and the children this summer. Great adventures await!